Once upon a time, I was GM of a 25-man raiding guild. That time was the dawning of Wrath. Every week we'd get our group together and head on into Naxxramas. We were actually pretty good at it -- at our peak I think we were the 7th-ranked Alliance guild on our server.
I loved raiding. The guildies I had who lived in town would all come over to our apartment and we'd hop on, get on Vent, raid. It was our routine Saturday night and I really looked forward to it.
Then Ulduar came out. By that time my girlfriend and I had broken up and the guild ended up falling apart thanks to some drama. I took a break from WoW for several months, coming back for the Alliance Tournament in 4.2. Good times.
I went into ToC a few times, saw a few of the fights. When ICC dropped I joined another raid guild and went in a few times. But something was missing. I just couldn't make myself commit. It didn't interest me the way it once did.
I kept meaning to get back into raiding, but Cata came and went and I didn't do any of it. I think I went into one of the T11 raids once, the one with the giant worm. I don't think I ever stepped foot into Firelands. Again, I just couldn't manage to commit to a raid night with people I didn't really know and wasn't really friends with.
LFR launched and it seemed a perfect solution. So I hopped in to Dragon Soul on my paladin tank. And was promptly and roundly ridiculed and trounced for not knowing the fights.
That was the last time I raided.
I used to love WoW for being a social game. I'd make in-game acquaintances via grouping, or I'd run content with my guildies. Granted, a lot of the time these were people I hung out with in real life. But that initial experience with LFR? Yeah, really makes me not want to give it another try.
It's pathetic, really. I mean I could go to Icy Veins or Tankspot or wherever and learn the strats. I could try to join a raiding guild. LFR is still there, I have oQueue installed, I just.
I designed an entire backstory for my monk. He was a citizen of Theramore, you see. A tradesman engineer, with a wife and daughter. He was working in the harbor when the mana bomb dropped. He survived, but his family was killed. He turned to drink until he met a monk, who offered him a route to dealing with his demons. He swore to avenge himself against Garrosh and the Horde.
This character's entire backstory was about Garrosh. About going in and making him pay for what he did. And Siege has been out for two months now and I still haven't set foot into it. (I couldn't even if I wanted to -- my ilvl isn't high enough and Timeless Isle hasn't been very kind to me.)
Truth is, I'm really anxious about it. If I could just walk into Siege as I am now I might consider it, but given that I'd pretty much have to run Throne indefinitely until my gear was up to snuff? Yeah, not happening. Not unless I, y'know, grow a spine and/or go learn the fights first.
I really miss raiding. I really miss getting together with my friends and laying some smack down on some internet dragons. That was honestly central to my entire Warcraft experience. Without it...
Without it I'm just going through the motions.
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